I haven’t been posting much. (GASP!) I’m not sure why. I’ve been working a lot of LOTG, but not enough since the last photo to post.
I’m pretty down (is that the right word, I dunno) about my work situation. I’ve been unhappy about how the higher-ups are treating my section for awhile now, but seriously within the past year. And my coworker is looking for new jobs. Me, too. Unfortunately, even though I live in a city of about 400K, there aren’t a lot of jobs available for someone with my background. Meaning, an advanced science degree. The local university does have some research associate positions open, but the ones I am qualified for (since I know nothing about DNA at this point in my life) are I believe in the animal labs, where the responsibilities involve anesthetizing animals, making cell cultures, etc. I suspect that the animals are still alive during all this. And I suspect (given what I know about such labs) that all that is given is a local during those tissue collections, if even that. And I just cannot do that. Period. I understand the benefits of some animal research, but most of it to me seems pretty redundant, useless, and cruel. So, no, that job is not an option.
And after working at my current job for almost 4 years, I have gotten used to the salary (not especially high, but enough for C and I to be slightly above average for the area), the retirement benefits, and the prestige(?) of being able to say I work as a ______. So as of this moment, I am staying put, as crappy as they’re treating us. I suspect they’re getting ready to shut down our local section anyway, and all this worrying about whether I should stay or not is a moot point.
I’ll just keep punching the clock (instead of a boss) until the bottom falls out.
PS. I had silly fantasies this morning during breakfast of winning it big at the casinos. But, er, we never go, so I’m not too clear on the details of how we win…
PPS. My coworker M says that people of our generation (late 20s and early 30s) are having crises, so we’re just moving along with the herd. It made me wonder how many other people are in this same situation: in a great but poorly managed job, so it becomes a mental and physical torture to go every day, and who are essentially stuck there due to the economic miasma of the nation or, as in my case, my location, and have no other recourse but to suffer and hate and become bitter people. Ye gads.
PPPS. I wish we could move to CA to be closer to my mom (and the few friends I have), but C has a contract to work with the city’s PD for another 2 years.
*** I should look on the bright side, I suppose. All my family is healthy and nothing major is happening. I have some great books to read and some lovely cross stitch pieces to while away my time. And my fuzzies are as loving as ever (if a bit pilly when it comes to morning kibble time!). And C has a job! That he likes! It’s not SO bad, but it’s annoying. :p